Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Letter from Debbie Hilton. 21March 2009

This is what Debbie Hilton in Australia said to Ninette in a letter written five weeks before Susan died.

Debbie was Susan's Chief Bridesmaid.

Bridal Group
"Forgive me for not writing before. I should have and I know how remiss it was of me not to have the courage to put fingers to keyboard. I can't help it - I just don't want this to happen. Of all my cousins, Suzie is the one I hold dearest to my heart. There is something deeply good about Suzie and she is and always has been the sweetest, kindest soul. My heart breaks knowing how ill she is and I wish I could say the right thing, write the brave and encouraging sentence that will comfort you and her family but I know that is not possible. I am at a loss to understand why it is so many of the people I love so dearly (even though I rarely see them) have been stricken with cancer and I ask : 'Why Lord, Why?' I try to convince myself that only the best are taken so early but that just won't do any longer. In short, I am confused, I am angry and I don't accept what is going to happen.

Susan and Donald.
2nd August 1986
In the distance, across continents and over the ether, my hand reaches out to touch yours and to let Suzie know she will always be in my heart and in my thoughts.
I pray God spares her pain and helps her through this time,
helps Don and her boys, too . . . . . ."